he complained again and keep niaming today till we started quarrel again.

it started because i had to go to science to submit a group report and then i asked him (for one of the rare times) if he could wait for me for a while and send me home. the word is 'ask' because i told him that it is ok if he can't (i was feeling extremely tired today. had meeting till late last night and slept for 4 hours for the 2 presentations we had to do in class. I had to go home and do my report and I don’t feel up to it with my heels) and he said 'since you ask, then ok lor.'

now, note over here: just two days ago, he told me that he had submitted his thesis and he would be unlike the past one year. he would be a changed man and would help me do stuff if i ask.

so i went to submit the report and when i came down, he had that 'buay song ' face so i said 'do you really mind? you have a lot of things to do?' then he came up with the whole theory that he always came up with when he was doing his thesis and he started to say things like i am taking it for granted which i found it extremely shocking because the last thing i did was to assume that he is my driver. take for example even yesterday, we went to play squash with his brother and nephew then i had to rush to school for a meeting. His brother and mother suggested that he should send me there but he rejected because after playing squash, all 3 of us went back to his home to bathe and he is too ‘lazy’ to come out actually. But I was perfectly ok with it. I just took a cab down because it was really late and I when playing squash, I don’t feel good to rush them or anything. The cab fare came about 15 bucks . And this is not the first time. His little bro had sometimes even ask him to send me up or send me home but no…

so imagine my amazement at his attitude and shock when he said that I am taking things for granted and I retorted that he is taking it for granted that I should always take the bus to his house which is like at least once a week. And no, of course he didn’t accept that because he is always right, as usual.

And guess why he says I am taking things for granted? He said that because he usually send me home so often. Right. Firstly we rarely go outside on dates but even when we did, for a GUY who has a CAR, wow THAT is something to be complained about. Even honestly I am perfectly fine if he wants to meet at orchard. I love public transport and I have done that for my last 20 years. I like to take buses to orchard for shopping and I like to take it home too. And secondly, when I spend an hour travelling to your house, why is it that you who can just spend 15 mins driving me home and then 15 mins back to your house have to complain so damn much?

What I cannot believe is that I as a girl, did not even count the number of times I take public transport to the house of this guy who has a car BUT he as a guy with a car actually started to count the number of times he send me home. I thought that sending girls home is a way of concern to make sure that she reaches home safely, no? it is NOT something that a guy should do BUT it is something that is done out of care. And it is not like he is taking public transport. He drives and his house is 15-20 mins away.

Now, his prof had just given him the topics of 10 journal papers this afternoon to write at his own discretion and he is anxious because he wants to build his resume. But like what I had always felt with his thesis, while these are important to him, all of these could be done at his own time and target BUT for me, exams & projects deadlines have a deadline for that particular timing.

And I get so frustrated because he always cut in when I am talking so I cannot end my sentences and so when I continue, he will say I want the ‘last word’. He used to say that I should just say ‘yes, I am wrong. Sorry.’ And stop arguing no matter what but I am so sorry, I won’t apologize for something I feel that I had no fault in.

When I was submitted the report, I made up my mind to thank him properly when I see him cos I know this is extra effort this time. But he just had to do that. And he said something like, ‘think about when I ask you for something. Did I ever ask you to help me to do something for me?’. Omg. In the first place, I had NEVER asked him to fetch me around. I had asked my sister and her bf if they can fetch me to school in the morning yes but not him because it had registered in my mind early that I can’t approach him about this kind of thing . AND number two, as a matter of fact, he asked me to do a lot of things: 1) having to source for rooms and hotels and book on his behalf for holidays or for trips; 2) lending him my laptop for weeks even though I had projects and so on because the software can only work on my laptop; 3) to go over to his house myself (and when I said that I don’t think I have the time to go over, he would be ‘disappointed’ and sound sians). And etc. I didn’t even count that stuff but he counted what this time and when? I have friends whose boyfriends will come at night just to fetch girlfriend home not because of obligation but because he is worried that it is unsafe for her to be at Clarke quay or timbre so late.

I am just so so sick of this. He is so 计较。

Actually there was something that I was quite pissed off with him with regards to jojo but I didn’t blog about it was his half-heartedness to bring jojo to the vet when jojo fractured his leg. He didn’t seemed apologetic that it happened when I was out for meeting and jojo was under his care (I know it is not his fault so I didn’t blame him) but he had to say things like ‘so what if you bring jojo to the doctor. Seriously, what can the vet do? There is nothing he can do.’, causing me to stare at him in amazement and say, ‘so when you fracture your leg, you are just going to leave it dangling like that lar. Even if it is for life, it is ok for you is it?’

(btw, untreated fractures may lead to hip infection due to uneven weigh distribution). He was frustrated throughout because (he told me) that he view this as a disruption to his work (which as I said has no deadline but it is at own time own target). And then he said that it is too late so we will send jo to the vet but for the next day, he suddenly said that it is public holiday and the next day was Sunday so we can’t send till Monday. I gaped at him and said, ‘urm shouldn’t we at least go online to see if there are any vets that may open half day during holidays and on Sundays?’

And of course, when it was mentioned that jojo need to do an x-ray to know the seriousness as it is confirmed that his leg is completely broken, the first thing he said was ‘oh it is going to be expensive’. Omg and I just rolled my eyes because when you know some creature’s leg is completely broken and he might be crippled for life, money may be one of your concerns but not your first, isn’t it?

Jojo is having a fever and it is not subsiding. Me with my exams and project deadlines, I don’t need all of this crap to stuff my head with.